‘Youngest’
Helena Pantsis
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Image description for Page 1:
A comic titled youngest, drawn in black pen. The title 'youngest' appears at the top of the page in bold, dark letters, underlined by a thick, squiggly line that morphs into a black stick-figure type person who lies with their limbs splayed out.
Image 1: A photo frame of a faceless family hangs on the wall. The family is made up of a mother, a father, an older boy, a younger boy, and a baby in the mother's arms. The picture is partly obscured by an upright, leafy plant, and hangs above a horizontal planter holding small sprouts.
Text reads: There's a picture of your family from before you were conceived hanging in the hallway by the front door. In it your mother holds your older brother on her knee, your oldest brother leans gently on your dad and everyone smiles wide against an artificial background of sky blue.
Image 2: A puzzle of a girl waving sits, almost fully-formed, with only the puzzle pieces making up her face missing.
Text reads: They look whole,
Image 3: An empty swing set sits in the yard.
Text reads: Not waiting, not wanting,
Image 4: A mother looks inwards at a nursery in a hospital, her back turned to the reader, with each crib holding a faceless baby before her. Her position obscures the baby in the middle.
Text reads: Not missing someone like you.
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Image 5: A woman with shoulder-length hair stares into the mirror, her back to the reader, as hands appear around her holding a comb and a pair of scissors.
Text reads: Your are grown now, and there is a photo of your family hanging in the hallway with you in it.
Image 6: Helium balloons spelling the number '21' are tied to a chair and float upwards.
Text reads: Still...
Image 7: A faceless girl looks into a fishbowl, where greenery floats, and two fish swim around. Her head is enlarged, magnified by the glass. The image is sideways.
Text reads: There are days where you feel like a void.
Image 8: A series of mannequin heads sits atop a bureau, one facing sideways, so its expression is hidden, while the second smiles, and the third, though barely visible, appears to be frowning. The girl stands, her back to the reader, grabbing the frowning mannequin with her left hand. The image is, again, sideways.
Text reads: On those days you have no face. You swallow your name and become your mother's shadow.
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Image 9: A Mr Potato Head toy lies in pieces. His body is devoid of features, surrounded by two loose arms, a nose, two ears, a pair of eyes, a mouth, and two shoes.
Text reads: You mourn the years you weren't alive. It doesn't seem right that people you have your whole life have lived a life without you.
Image 10: A series of origami doves fly upwards, out of a paper waste basket.
Text reads: The years rack up like paper doves.
Image 11: A girl holds a helium balloon, which rises up to sit over the place where her face would be.
Text reads: You miss them retroactively.
Image 12: The balloon floats away, growing smaller as it fades away into the clouds.
Text reads: Sometimes it feels like you never really arrived.
The end.
Helena Pantsis (she/they) is a writer and artist from Naarm, Australia, with a fond appreciation for the weird, the dark, and the experimental. She is the author of short story collection, ‘Mother Salad’, winner of the Steele Rudd Award for a Short Story Collection as part of the 2026 Queensland Literary Awards. More can be found at hlnpnts.com..